So much can happen in one year.
Life happens in One Year.
We change in One Year.
Today is the Anniversary of our One Year.
I’ve been dreading this Anniversary.
For One Year it has loomed large on the horizon.
And, for One Whole Year I’ve been wishing for a fast forward button.
Damn, where is that fast forward button.
Why don’t emotions respond to direct commands.
I’ve lived this One Year.
I have felt it all, all for One Year.
I don’t stuff emotion well, I eat them.
I don’t connect well in the tumult of emotion, I hide.
I don’t sort emotion well, I explode.
But as I live this dreaded One Year Anniversary and I gaze back at the path to this day I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished, We’ve (the little family that lost this Husband and Dad and Papa) accomplished.
We’re not as big a mess as I thought we’d be.
I’ve hid from my blog this One Year.
I felt you could only take so much of my wrestle with this One Year. Feel free to embrace the assumption based on my above comment, the real reason for silence, “She doesn’t connect well in a tumult of emotions, She Hides”.
You’d be right to make such an assumption.
I can be such a coward.
I’m back now.
Today I mourn.
The deepest, heart wrenching type of mourning. If you saw the state of my heart you would weep too. Maybe you’ve already caught a glimpse in the words tear typed on the screen.
Hope for a new horizon.
Tomorrow, I’m past this Anniversary and my heart senses the warmth of the sun on that new horizon.
Thanks for hanging in there with me.
It’s been quite a Year.